Strange taste in books....
In this episode of looking in Will's head, we will see how Will's thoughts progress. Enjoy!
BTW...Masks= Changes of personality.
I have a very strange taste in books...While most of my peers remain uninterested in books, I not only love to read books, I have a very strange taste in books, absolutely loving things such as fantasy, sci-fi and even books about religion and spirituality! Not many people my age that I can think of have that eclectic a taste in books! This also brings me to the topic of my not maturing. (in some ways) I have always loved computer games such as Star Wars, or a good FPS, and I still love it just as much, if not more. I know people who used to like these things but have grown out of them, and I can't help but feel that I should have too! It's almost like I get a guilty feeling whenever I start a game. (Rushan! Could that be it?) I dunno...
Which brings me to my next point...Since my interests don't really seem to reflect most of my friend's interests (which, sadly enough, tend to be hockey :( ) I have to wear masks almost all the time.
I know what you are thinking, but don't worry. I don't pretend to like hockey :D
Hopefully I will meet some new people to hang out with in Colonel Gray...
I am not proud of the amount of masks I feel I am forced to wear. It seems that when I first meet someone I make a mask that will best go with their personality and then I am stuck with that! There are always the certain few that I don't have to wear a mask around, Rushan, Ben, Reese to name a few, and for this I am eternally grateful. These are the people that mean the most to me, the people that can accept me for who I am. There are some things I would like to say, but I don't think are appropriate for a public blog. Luckily I have Rushan to vent to. Typing all of that that I had to erase took all my creative juices and now I have nothing to show for it...Oh well. I'm done for now.
Interesting how talking about books can lead you the deepest darkest depths of your soul, so deep that they are not meant for public view :D (I am just trying to make you curious ;) )
BTW...Masks= Changes of personality.
I have a very strange taste in books...While most of my peers remain uninterested in books, I not only love to read books, I have a very strange taste in books, absolutely loving things such as fantasy, sci-fi and even books about religion and spirituality! Not many people my age that I can think of have that eclectic a taste in books! This also brings me to the topic of my not maturing. (in some ways) I have always loved computer games such as Star Wars, or a good FPS, and I still love it just as much, if not more. I know people who used to like these things but have grown out of them, and I can't help but feel that I should have too! It's almost like I get a guilty feeling whenever I start a game. (Rushan! Could that be it?) I dunno...
Which brings me to my next point...Since my interests don't really seem to reflect most of my friend's interests (which, sadly enough, tend to be hockey :( ) I have to wear masks almost all the time.
I know what you are thinking, but don't worry. I don't pretend to like hockey :D
Hopefully I will meet some new people to hang out with in Colonel Gray...
I am not proud of the amount of masks I feel I am forced to wear. It seems that when I first meet someone I make a mask that will best go with their personality and then I am stuck with that! There are always the certain few that I don't have to wear a mask around, Rushan, Ben, Reese to name a few, and for this I am eternally grateful. These are the people that mean the most to me, the people that can accept me for who I am. There are some things I would like to say, but I don't think are appropriate for a public blog. Luckily I have Rushan to vent to. Typing all of that that I had to erase took all my creative juices and now I have nothing to show for it...Oh well. I'm done for now.
Interesting how talking about books can lead you the deepest darkest depths of your soul, so deep that they are not meant for public view :D (I am just trying to make you curious ;) )
Wow, weird that you're like 10 feet from your mom at many point during the day, but she finds out about you through a blog. :D
Posted by
Charlie |
August 31, 2005 12:03 PM
Hi Will. So you want my comments!
I don't really think that liking computer games is a sign of immaturity - as I see it it actually relates well to your fascination with fantasy & SF books. You are a person with an amazing imagination and a high level of creativity. If you are feeling guilty, one would have to ask where that feeling is coming from and who or what is "shaming" you into into feeling that sense of guilt.
Which leads on to your comment about your masks. I am honoured that you feel safe enough with me to be able to take off your masks and be your real self. The real Will that I see is an awesome individual with a heap of wonderful qualities like calmness, intelligence, a person who needs and enjoys time to be alone, creativity, imagination, and a sense of caring for others and their feelings. I feel sorry for the people who don't really get to see that side of you or who think they need to change you in some way. I will be posting something about masks on my blog so check it out. So that is my 2 cents worth!!!!
Posted by
Rushan |
August 31, 2005 6:46 PM
Will, I'm glad that we can be like that around each other. It's so hard to explain how I feel right now but let me tell you that I am the same with you... you are so important to me that I could never wear a mask. I am so glad that I can share my 'self' with you (and Rushan!) and that it is reciprocated back.
I'll talk to you soon.
Posted by
Reese |
September 01, 2005 8:18 AM