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AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I DO!!!! I JUST MADE A HUGE LONG POST ABOUT MOTIVATION AND MOM WENT AND @#!*$% IT UP BY CLEARING THE CACHE!! ARG!!!!!!!

It's not your fault mom...you asked my permission to do it first. It's my fault. Excuse me while I break something over my head.

INTERMISSION

Now where was I... Right.

My name is Will, and I am lazy as hell.

I don't know why you bother to visit my blog. I am still cleaning the cobwebs from my face from the rarely-traveled path to posting on my blog. Seriously I just can't get motivated to to it. No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to do it. Motivation is, and I think always will be, my biggest problem in life. I start something, and after seeing some results decide that I am bored with that and have gotten everything I can from it and move on. I think I might have ADD. Take, for example, my book. Started it fine, and haven't touched it in months. And also, take my blog in general. It started fine, I had a post 2-3 times a week. Now, if you look at my archives you will see a steady increase in the time between each post and it has now grown to a now massive number of as much as 2 weeks. It really is quite pathetic.

My math teacher this year, Mr. Cutcliffe, who happens to be one of my favorite teachers ever, explained perfectly what I have never been able to put into words in parent teacher interviews. He told me parents that while I am maintaining a very good average, I have to ability to do much better if I decided to check my work and go through it carefully. (I find this INCREDIBLY boring so I don't bother) He also said that it seems like I am happy with where I am, so it probably won't happen until I am not. There is the root of the problem. On the outside, I say that I am not happy with a 90% average, and will try to improve on it, but deep down I have it so deeply engraved in my mind that 90% is amazing that I am perfectly content to settle for 90% when 95% is within my grasp. I realize that if I want any kind of good scholarship, I will need to improve on that, but I just can't seem to get motivated! It is very frustrating. I will really need to work on that if I plan to attend Philips Exeter Academy with a full scholarship :) I am thinking about applying there, and if I get any type of major scholarship, to seriously consider attending for at least a college/university prep year. It would be so neat to live down there...and besides I would be living in the same place as Rushan again! :D I wonder how he would react to me following him around the continent. He'll probably move back to NZ ;)

I am really hoping that this trip to France will be a chance for "Motivated Will" (if he exists) to make a surprise entry. I have made a bet with FX that in the 3 months I am in France I will have a better school average than him. This will be a very difficult, if not impossible challenge thanks to a second language, a much tougher school system and competing against a very intelligent guy. But we'll see how it turns out :) I really hope that MW will make an entry soon...I will also need him if I am planning on entering the Music Festival and doing well (My goal is provincials...once again a lofty goal, all things considered) with only 2 weeks between my returning from France and the competition itself. But we'll see.

I am now nearing my 1000th hit. To all you people who continue to visit my blog more than I even think about it, thank you for taking an interest in my life, even when I can't.